Teresa Giudiceis sharing her side of the long-standing feud with her brotherJoe Gorgaand sister-in-lawMelissa Gorga.

AsReal Housewives of New Jerseyfans know, the trio have hit some rocky patches in their relationship over the 11 years they’ve been on the show together — but things reached a breaking point this summer after Joe and Melissa notablyskippedTeresa’s wedding to Luis “Louie” Ruelas.

Teresa, who has been onRHONJsince its debut in 2009, explains: “The reason why I still talk about it now, and it’s been 10 years, is because it was very traumatic.”

“I would’ve never sucker-punched them like that,” she says, “because I don’t roll like that. If they were on a show, I would’ve never went on there and hurt them the way they hurt me. That’s not my style. That’s not the person I am. If anything, I would’ve got my own thing, because I’m always that. I always like to be different.”

Joe and Melissa Gorga (left) with Teresa Giudice.Charles Sykes/Bravo/NBCU Photo Bank/Getty (2)

Melissa Gorga, Joe Gorga, Teresa Giudice

While some of the tension between the trio stemmed from the legal troubles that Teresa and her ex-husbandJoe Giudicefaced years ago, more recent drama was centered around Teresa and husbandLuis “Louie” Ruelas’s treatment of Joe and Melissa, both 43.

In May, Joe and Teresa got into an explosive fight during theRHONJseason 12 reunion after Teresa called her younger brother a “bitch boy” and dismissively compared him to a Housewife. The argumentgot so intense between the two siblingsthat Joe walked off stage, threatening to"quit" the Bravo franchise.

Teresa laterclaimed she had apologizedand mended things with her brother, but that was only the start of what was to come between them. In early August, PEOPLE confirmed that the Gorgas wouldn’t be at Teresa and Louie’s wedding. (By that point, Teresa had already confirmed that Melissawould not be a bridesmaidin her wedding.)

Two sources said Melissa and Joe backed out of attending two days before the ceremony when false rumors about their marriage surfaced amid filming. Both Teresa and Louie’s actions at the time ultimately influenced the Gorgas' decision.

“Teresa betrayed themin a way that’s unforgivable,” one source said. “They’re not going to celebrate Teresa’s new marriage when all she does is try to tear apart theirs.”

Joe and Melissa have since spoken out about skipping the wedding on their podcast, with Melissa calling it “unfortunate” and Joe admitting it was “one of the hardest days of my life.”

“It was bad,” he added. “But listen: let’s go back tothe reunion. She did this, you know? This was all on her. This is what she really wanted. She didn’t want [Melissa] in the wedding, she didn’t want any of my children in the wedding, she barely wanted me.”

Teresa Giudice and Luis Ruelas with Melissa and Joe Gorga.Teresa Giudice/Instagram

Teresa Giudice

“I come from a small family and we were really close. And then for something like this to happen, it was really hard for me to deal with,” she explains. “I always tried to keep the peace and that’s why I kept my mouth shut for a lot of years … because my parents, they lived for me and my brother … for anything bad to happen afterwards, it’s heartbreaking. No parents want to see their children fighting.”

“But now, unfortunately, my parents are not here anymore,” she says. “So I’m going to do what’s good for my family, good for me, good for my children. And I just want peace. And that’s why any toxicity, [I have to] keep it out…. I’m not going to accept this toxicity anymore. I am going to be the mama bear, protect my family.”

Teresa Giudice.Jenna Russo, Silent Capture Photography & Videography, @silentcapturephoto

Teresa Giudice and Louie Ruelas

She also knows that she’ll never walk fromRHONJ, even it currently means having to work closely with Joe and Melissa.

“I would never step away. I started the show. I’m never going to give that to anyone because I’m the one that started the show,” she says. “Other people are trying to put that out there, like, ‘Oh, Teresa wants to leave.’ It’s so crazy to me how people are trying to plant the seed that Teresa wants to leave the show … the games that people play. No. I started this. I’m not walking away until Bravo wants me to walk away.”

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Season 13 ofThe Real Housewives of New Jerseypremieres Feb. 7 at 9 p.m. ET on Bravo.

source: people.com