Photo: Chloe Melas/Instagram
The CNN reporter and husbandBrian Mazzaare expecting their second son this summer, they announced Tuesday on Instagram with asweet sex-reveal video.
“Wow! I still can’t believe that I’ll be a mom of two boys 💙 But I also want to say this — when we were struggling to get pregnant the first time, seeing these types of posts made me very sad. Our road both times to expand our family has been challenging,” Melas, 32, captioned afollow-up set of photosfrom the reveal.
Chloe Melas and husband Brian Mazza.Chloe Melas/Instagram
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“There were problems on both sides, so we went to a really dark place together,” she says of the time before Leo was born. “I was super depressed, crying all the time. I was convinced that we would never have children, that I would never carry my own child or have my own biological child.”
“I was at a fertility clinic and they were monitoring my cycle, and then they were telling us when to go have sex. That took the joy and fun out of sex,” Melas laments. “I was also peeing on the ovulation sticks, and I remember one time my husband came home late from work and we were supposed to have sex at a certain time, and we got into a huge argument. I had a box of the ovulation sticks, and I threw it up into the air — and literally, like 50 or 60 of those sticks went all over our apartment. It’s almost comical, like something out of a movie.”
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Melas tells PEOPLE she was initially “devastated”to entertain the idea of IVF becauseof her fear of “What if?” surrounding the scenario where it wouldn’t help her expand her family. So she treated herself “like a fragile egg” in the two weeks following her first embryo transfer — and luckily, it led to a positive test that resulted in little Leo.
But that didn’t make it easy to enjoy the fruits of her labor after the “total nightmare” of going through hormone injections ahead of her egg retrieval, which made her feel like she was already pregnant and affected her moods in a significantly negative way.
“You would think that’s great, and it was great to hear, but I didn’t believe it,” Melas recalls of finally seeing a positive pregnancy test. “I don’t think that I believed that I was ever gonna be a mom until I gave birth and I met him and I held Leo in my arms. Thejoy of finding out you’re pregnantand everything that happens along the way to get there … the joy was gone.”
But through discussions about fertility with fellow moms likeSarah Jessica Parker,Nicole Kidmanand more, Melas recalls “finally” feeling “kind of like, ‘Wow I’m not alone’ ” and hopes to use her own experience to help get the same message across to other women struggling with infertility.
“I just want everybody to know that it’s not always a happy journey to get the outcome that you want, but don’t give up, stay on the road, because the outcome is so worth it,” she adds.
source: people.com
